I move toward form, I use my fears,
admonish age but face what leaves
no 'scape from crow's feet deepened,
the years, flat lines and likened to the streaks
of white I tease from outgrown roots
and pull as weeds from ancient grounds
tendered in praise of one more winter's rains.
I fear a drowning, am always under water,
my shell, too, thinning, too brittle to absorb
what else fills vacant space, the deep holes
where stars withdraw from so much natural
light. I see how nature reuses forms I fear,
makes blades of grass, sharpens the stinger
of the wasp knowing to fix the pain in place,
pulsing its variations in red, a heart reclaiming
its target. I move toward form, become again
a funnel of fear catching on a ragged wish bone,
broken, its short side mine and put aside. You,
all steel, your armature deflects what glancing
blows in time can do when finally they turn in
on themselves, cutting in two the borrowed form
we lashed together to make us one. You use
my fears, I'm moved to form the classic letter,
enclosing what truth is found in words remade
in perfect combinations of silent consonants
and single vowels, like this one — I — left lone and loathe
yet to forgive the culminating treason of x's and o's.
© 2013 Maureen E. Doallas
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* Inspired by the question "Do I move toward form, do I use all my fears?" in "Double Ode" from The Gates (1976) in The Muriel Rukeyser Reader (W.W. Norton, 1994), 271. The collection is available through re-sellers. The poem is included in The Collected Poems of Muriel Rukeyser (University of Pittsburgh Press, 2006).
3 comments:
"I see how nature reuses forms I fear."
That line is sticking with me as I finish this poem.
i'm with hannah on that one...
So well described.
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